Snatcher

It’s 2:15 in the morning and I’m too lazy to write, but my days have been so filled with overwhelming blessings that I wouldn’t be able to sleep in peace if I didn’t write about them.

Just a while ago, I had this perfect picture of what would have happened if I didn’t lose my purse on Christmas Eve: I’d be working on Christmas Day, work the day after Christmas Day, spend money on Chinese food, come home and sleep, update my diary, update my work blog, buy more Chinese food, sleep off my personal holidays, then work again come Saturday.

But I lost my purse, and my life’s gone down a totally different path.

Loyalty

Dying persons always seem to give the best pieces of advice.

I got a call from Cora this morning. She told me to expect a call from an independent pharmacy in Oakland because she told them I was interested in applying for an intern position. I love how she has always been a big help to me. She was also the one who told me about Craigslist when I was still looking for a place to move into.

I was really saddened when I learned that Cora was no longer pharmacy manager of CVS Sta. Clara. She went on disability leave because her cancer which she had just recently recovered from has suddenly relapsed. It was originally in the breast, but now the cancer has metastasized to her liver. Doesn’t sound really good, does it?

Our phone call this morning lasted for thirty seven minutes, 37 minutes full of stories of hard work and success and lessons learned in life. Dying persons always seem to give the best pieces of advice. She told me to be kind and patient, honest and true. But the biggest lesson she taught me today was this:

Loyalty.

Important

Wow. Seriously? I’m already back here?

I’ve been asking myself that in the last half hour. Everything happened so fast, I still can’t believe I’m already back here in my rented room, perched on one side of my bed, typing this blog entry on my computer.

Five days went by so fast. Like it never really happened. Like it was just a dream—a very beautiful dream! ‘Cuz in the course of those five days, I was able to learn to value what is really important. I still remember my status update on Facebook weeks/months ago about me being a pharmacy technician and a cash office clerk, but being a daughter and sister before anything else. No doubt, I made the right decision about going home for my vacation!

Just a while ago, I got a message from Jen. Seems like she was browsing my Pilipinas photos on Facebook:

Dreams Update: JULY 2011

If you’re a frequent reader, you may have noticed that I already have missed six consecutive Dreams Update entries this year! Imagine that, six!!! Now I won’t anymore let myself miss it the seventh time, so here I am, writing my Dreams Update.

The Bible says that as soon as Mary said YES to Angel Gabriel, she hurried off to a town in Judea to visit Elizabeth. Take note of the word “hurried.” But why the hurry?

In his latest article, Bo Sanchez said that “there’s this twilight zone between your decision and your action. Don’t stay in this area for too long. It’s dangerous. If you dillydally, if you loiter, if you meander in this twilight zone, before you know it…POOF! Your decision disappears forever.”

Note to God

For the past few months, I think the biggest problem I’ve had with myself is my lack of gratitude—the very same thing that’s been keeping me from being happy. But let me change that today. It’s the first day of the second half of the year, so let me begin it with a simple note.

Dear God, I know that all You wanted to hear from me was a simple “thank you,” but let me grab this chance to go over all the blessings that have been coming into my life this year.

Thank You, Lord, for my full-time job at Walgreens and part-time job at Ross. I know that it’s very hard to find a job in this time of recession, but look at me, I got not just one, but two! And I got medical and accident insurance too!

Speed of Light

So let me post this entry while I still feel happy and positive, ‘coz my mood could change at the speed of light. It’s been ages, hasn’t it, since the last time I blogged. I’ve been busy, and my long-term absence from the blogging world is more than enough to justify that. Ever since I started working, I barely had time for anything. But since it’s already the month of June and also the middle of the year, I’m having a mid-year’s resolution. And that is to blog as often as I can, and also to always think positive and act positive. BTW, I’m hitting my first year mark here in the US in 7 days! Time is really fast, isn’t it? Can you believe it’s almost been a year since June 15, 2010? And also a year since the last time I had my haircut? Wow.

I feel unusually sad today.

Hours quickly turn into days, days into weeks. Feels like I’m being left behind by time. I had never been so busy and stressed my entire life until now. Didn’t even have the time to update my blog and diary, and because of that, it feels like a big chunk of my life has gone missing.

Life isn’t easy. Especially when you don’t know what’s lying ahead of you. Sometimes I’d wake up in the morning and feel tired already. Just like today.

I feel so tired. And consumed. I don’t even wanna move. Just typing this blog entry takes a lot of effort. Right now, I just wanna sit in a corner and let the day pass by, just so I can go back to bed again, fall asleep, and forget that I feel unusually sad today.