Donghae

First thing in the morning, I saw Kimmy‘s tweets greeting Donghae for his birthday. “Hmmm… so it’s Donghae’s birthday today,” I thought to myself. And then… “it” occurred to me.

Birthday

Today’s supposed to be the birth of the new me—me who is more responsible, me who is more hardworking, and me who is more goal-oriented. But, what happened? Seems like the new me isn’t ready to come out yet. I’ll just postpone my birth for tomorrow. (Hehehe…)

BTW, a belated happy birthday to my friend, Compaq Presario V3000, who just celebrated his 3rd yesterday. Hope we’d still be together for a very long time! I promise to take care of you. Thanks for everything.

What’s wrong with that?

I’m a bit upset right now because I uploaded a birthday video for Kyuhyun and tagged my Facebook friends in it but instead of appreciating it they’re saying things like I’m an addict and that I’m scary. What’s wrong with what I did? I’m just a fan who wanted to greet her favorite singer a happy birthday but because she couldn’t do it personally, she did it by uploading a piano video containing her birthday message, thought it would be nice to share the video with her friends, and tagged them in Facebook. Now tell me, what’s wrong with that?

Today

…is the thirtieth day since The Silent Spectator started this blog. Some goals were fulfilled, most of them not. At least, I was able to start reading the Bible, the Book of Revelations, to be specific, and I finished John Beckett’s “Next Step: A 30-Day Guide for New Believers.” I never missed a single day. Now, that’s an achievement. (If you are a new believer, visit this site: http://www.gmo1and1.com/gmo/biblestudies/next_steps).

I didn’t learn much how to cook, or memorize all parts of the human body, or learn to play “Unchained Melody” on piano, but I did pray the Rosary every night until this day together with my family. I was also able to know Dr. House and got hooked on his TV show and learned many amazing medical facts. By watching that show, I also realized that since childhood, I  have always wanted to become a doctor, a good Christian doctor, and now I’m all determined to make it happen.

Today, I would like to thank my mom, or rather, I would like to thank God for giving me such a perfect mom. She’s the best mom a kid could ever have. If I were given a new life and a chance to pick a new mom, I would definitely and undoubtedly choose her again. She’s my best friend. I love her very much! ♥

I would also like to thank God for giving me a wonderful brother who loves me and cares for me even though I’m not so nice to him sometimes. (Sorry, God, for those times. May You grant me more patience and love for my one and only brother. Amen.)

Most of all, I would like to thank God for life itself. Life is a very precious gift that can only be given once. I’m asking God to help me become a better person each day so that my life would not be a waste. As the saying goes, “Live life to the fullest.”

(Thank You, God, for the 21 years. I really am thankful for them. Whatever sins or mistakes I’ve done in those years, please give me the strength to not repeat any of them again. I love You, God, and I need You. Please come into my life. Amen.)

Happy birthday to me.

Thirty

Hello, blog! The Silent Spectator speaks today.

Today, I’m making a list of things I would like to do before I turn 21. Cooking is one of them, so I’m glad I helped my mom in the kitchen a while ago to prepare our dinner. It was a special rice dish called “Arroz Valenciana.” It is special because it’s not something people in my country eat everyday. It’s only usually served during special occasions and city fiestas. Thank God, my mom is a wonder cook! In our home, everyday is fiesta.

Aside from cooking, I would also like to be able to play “Unchained Melody” on piano. I had formal piano lessons 6 years ago, when I was in high school, and then stopped when I finished my grade 2 book. I didn’t continue with the lessons further. I just self-practiced at home, and downloaded music sheets from the Internet. Of all the music sheets I’ve printed out, “Unchained Melody” is the most beautiful. It is the most complicated too.

Another thing I would like to do before I reach 21 is to read the Bible. I’m not saying that I would like to finish the whole of it but I would like to at least start. I know that reading the entire Bible would take a great amount of time and inspiration. It’ll surely be past my 21^st birthday by the time I finish it. For now, I’m asking the Holy Spirit, please, inspire me!

There are still many “things-to-do” in my list but I’m too lazy now to expound on each of them. So I’ll just type them all here:

Before I turn 21, I would like to “memorize by heart” all the parts of the human body, be more strict in my daily exercise schedule, pray the rosary everyday until my birthday (I want to be saint, you know), be fluent in English, upload more piano videos on YouTube, update my blog regularly, earn more money in myLot, and be closer to my mom, brother, and God. (Actually, I signed up today for John Beckett’s “Next Steps,” a 30-day newsletter forwarded to e-mails of new believers.)

It’s not a very long list, right? I still have time to do all that.

I still have thirty days.

PS: Today we celebrate the feast day of St. Therese of the Child Jesus. She lived a very simple life and died at the age of 24. She’s my idol. I want to be like her. I think God has a habit of taking away holy people’s lives while they’re young so they don’t have to suffer anymore. So if you want to be young forever, be good. Be really good, for the sake of dying young.