Tomorrow

It’s a beautiful night. The moon is out. The stars are shining. I feel good. But it’s just  an ordinary night. I’m sitting here in front of my laptop, watching videos on YouTube. The whole day, Park Da Ye’s “What Should I Do” kept playing in my head. Well, it’s gone. Now my mind is just blank. Empty. I feel nothing. I only said I feel good because I don’t feel bad. Actually, I don’t feel anything at all. Tomorrow is Christmas. I should be downstairs right now, sitting with my family by the table, waiting for midnight. But I don’t feel like it. Honestly, I don’t want tomorrow to come, because tomorrow I should be doing my assignments and taking two online exams. What’s worse, I found out just now that tomorrow is the deadline. I only wish now that tomorrow never comes.

Dear Goldie

December 18, 2009 (20:38)

Dear Goldie,

You’re one of the sweetest persons I know. Hope you’ll never change. I’m really grateful that we crossed paths again in Ovada since we were never close way back in college. Thanks for being so nice to me. I was really touched when you came into our room one night just to share your dream (about “him”) with me.

Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year! Friends forever!

Love,

The Silent Spectator

PS: I’m sure you’ll receive a greeting from “him” this Christmas! And I’m looking forward to visiting your blog soon! ☺

Dear Unni

December 18, 2009 (19:46)

Dear Unni,

You may not know it but I’ve learned a lot of things from you. I love my profession now more than before, and you contributed greatly to that. It’s just amazing how everything you say makes a lot of sense. You’re one of my inspirations. I will always look up to you. Thanks for all the help!

Have a wonderful Christmas and a happy New Year!

I “heart” you! ♥

Love,

The Silent Spectator

Dear Friend

Tonight in the dormitory, we exchanged gifts among ourselves. We drew lots a couple of weeks ago and I picked Audrey’s name. Funny thing was that she even accompanied me to buy my gift, not having a single clue that it was her who I picked.

We were both in tears when I gave it to her. It was a very cute cool diary with purple checkered skin. I so love it! I honestly wanted to keep it for myself, but I wanted to inspire Audrey to keep a diary too. Moreover, she was the one who picked that design.

(I know it looks just like a piece of tablecloth in here but I swear you'd definitely want one when you saw it for real!)

On the first page of the diary, I wrote a message for Audrey, wishing her a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year, and thanking her for everything she’s done for me, like singing Korean songs with me, studying notes with me, sharing her food with me, and simply for just being there. Audrey is a dear friend. ☺

Time

There are only 77 days left before Christmas, and 22 days before I turn 21. I notice that Time’s being a little bit fast lately. I don’t know if that’s good or bad. Good, maybe, for other people. I don’t think it is the same for me. Maybe because I’m slower than Time? I dunno. Haven’t accomplished much. Are we having a race here? Oh well. Think I’m gonna have to talk with Time, ask him to slow down for a while and wait for me.

“Will that be okay with you, Time?” – The Silent Spectator

No answer.