November 12

Exactly one year ago, I was sitting on my bed, facing my laptop, and spazzing about Cho Kyuhyun. Tonight, I’m still sitting on my bed, facing my laptop, and thanking everyone who greeted me on Facebook because I’ve passed the FPGEE!!!

Dream #1, accomplished.

Today must be a lucky day.

Today, I realized…

…that I still want to become a doctor!!!

I watched Kyuhyun’s segment in “Strong Heart” about “second life” this morning and listened to him talk about the famous car accident they had 3 years ago. Among the 6 people who got hurt, Kyuhyun’s injury was the worst. He had 6 broken ribs which pierced through his lungs, every breath making him one step closer to death. When the doctors saw him, all of them said one thing: “This kid is going to die.”

“If we are going to operate, we have to start from the throat,” the doctors continued. However, Kyuhyun’s father opposed the doctors’ decision, saying, “My son is a singer. If you cut him from the throat, doesn’t it equate to robbing him of his dreams? Even if he survives, how can he continue to live?” The doctors and the father  then ended up in a heated argument.

At that moment, a Chinese doctor, who was advanced in age, stepped into the scene. “I can still remember his name,” Kyuhyun said. The name was Wang Yang Pil. The doctor said he knew of another method to operate, and he would use it on Kyuhyun, so the latter would still be able to sing.

Five months later, Kyuhyun was singing again on stage with the other members, just like nothing happened.

That doctor was definitely a lifesaver, and should I say, a “dream-saver!” Plus,  he reminds me of Dr. House!

Like them, I want to be a doctor. I want to save lives. And I want to protect others’ dreams.

*bow*

Bonamana 4/11

So here’s the tracklist of Super Junior’s much anticipated 4th album, “미 인 아 (BONAMANA).”

슈퍼주니어 4집 - 미인아 (Type A) Source: YesAsia.com Buy now!

01. 미 인 아 (BONAMANA)
02. 나쁜 여자 (Boom Boom)
03. 응결 (Coagulation)
04. 나란 사람 (Your Eyes)
05. My Only Girl
06. 사랑이 이렇게 (My All Is In You)
07. Shake It Up!
08. 잠들고 싶어 (In My Dream)
09. 봄날 (One Fine Spring Day)
10. 좋은 사람 (Good Person)
11. Here We Go

As any other SuJu fan, I was as eager to listen to their 4th album tracks, so last night, after watching my daily dose of “House MD,” I switched back to my fangirl self again and downloaded the entire album to my iPod. “What a wonderful way to end the day!” The Silent Spectator thought.

However… (NOTE: DON’T READ THIS IF YOU HAVEN’T LISTENED YET TO THE WHOLE ALBUM YOURSELF. YOU MIGHT HAVE A DIFFERENT OPINION ABOUT THIS MATTER)

…out of the 11 tracks, I only liked 4:

01. 미 인 아 (BONAMANA)
03. 응결 (Coagulation)
06. 사랑이 이렇게 (My All Is In You) <—– my most favorite
08. 잠들고 싶어 (In My Dream)

Sorry to say, but the 3rd album is still the best for me.

By the way, I just got a phone call from Kpop Lover and learned that we’ve got the same opinion about the “Bonamana” MV, that it’s just like the same old “Sorry, Sorry” black and white/grayscale video. Unfortunately, we were expecting more. The dance moves were awesome, anyway (but not in the chorus part <—- t’was a bit weird). All the same, Kyuhyun’s moves were epic!

Judgment

When it comes to music, I know my judgment so well.

My judgment is often affected by bias and by other people’s comments, so as much as possible I would always want to listen/watch the thing myself and generate my own thoughts before reading anyone else’s.

When I first listened to Super Junior’s newest single, “Miinah (BONAMANA),” on May 10th, I noticed at once that there was too much auto-tuning [and The Silent Spectator is not a big fan of auto-tune], but the beat and the melody, the combination of their voices, and the entire song in general were oh so beautiful that I didn’t dare listen to it again lest it gets stuck in my head.

Seven hours ago, Super Junior released their song’s official music video. Because of the song’s funky nature, I was expecting some funky choreography (of course!) and a colorful video. Sure enough, Super Junior didn’t disappoint me with the funky choreography, but…

…colorful video? Nah, epic fail!

I liked the video nonetheless. Oh how can I not when Kyuhyun’s got so many parts in it?

Now, I am biased.

Dreams Update: APRIL 2010

If you could see how I see myself inside my head, then you would see a successful pharmacist and doctor; a Korean, Spanish, Japanese and Mandarin translator; and the beloved wife of Cho Kyuhyun.

Baby Girl

Have you had any adverse reaction to Novocain? No.

…to sulfonamides? No.

Do you have asthma? No.

Do you have bleeding problems? No.

Do you have diabetes? No.

Do you…

After encircling all the “No” choices in the dentist’s pre-surgical form, I gave it back to my dentist. She read it for a moment, placed it on her desk, and came back with a glass of Orahex. I gargled with it for about 10 seconds and spat out the rinse.

“Okay, open your mouth,” the dentist said as she started applying what looked like a topical anesthetic onto the gum at the far lower left corner of my mouth, just about where my lower left 3rd molar tooth should erupt. In my case, that molar tooth didn’t and wouldn’t ever erupt at all because it was impacted. That is, it was growing in the wrong direction, just like this dental x-ray shows:

That was the very reason I underwent a dental surgery this morning. I had to get rid of it. Otherwise, it would push my other teeth forward and cause some misalignment. Since my lower left 3rd molar tooth didn’t erupt at all, my dentist had to extract it from beneath the gums, just like an abortion, but in my case, it was an “abortion of an unborn molar tooth.”

The topical anesthetic tasted cool and minty. After a while, the dentist grabbed a large metal syringe with a very long needle! I don’t think I felt the prick at all, and it was definitely because of the topical anesthesia. However, the image of that very large needle flashing in my mind made me feel like crying at that very moment. I thought of the anesthetic fluid slowly dripping into my gums, and how my gums could possibly hold all of them. I could already feel my tears collecting in my eyes, but then I remembered a passage which said, “Pain is temporary. Happiness is eternal.”

It took the dentist a while before she fully emptied that large syringe. During that short time that she was injecting the anesthesia, I was honestly thinking of Kyuhyun and the injury he experienced 3 years back. He absolutely suffered a much more serious pain than mine, but he endured all that with unbelievable strength and bravery. Mine couldn’t even qualify as pain. I was given an anesthetic, remember? What I was really feeling was fear, not pain. I asked God, “Can I name my guardian angel, ‘Kyuhyun?’” And then my tears dried up and disappeared. After that, I realized my gums were starting to feel a bit “bigger,” like what the dentist injected was actually an empty balloon, designed to inflate once inside the gums. I knew it was just a sign that the anesthetic had started to take effect.

Before the actual procedure, my dentist showed me my dental x-ray, while explaining what she was about to do—that she would first bore a little hole at the gum beside my 2nd molar so she could get into my 3rd molar. After that, she would cut my 3rd molar into two while it was still in place, and then she would take them out, one part at a time, and then voila! End of surgery.

Because of the anesthesia, I didn’t feel any pain when the dentist started cutting my gums with her scalpel. However, I felt a little pressure, and it was still like pain to me. But it was not a sharp pain. If there was such a thing in this world as “heavy pain,” then that was exactly how I felt. It was really heavy, like a 10-wheeler truck. It felt like the dentist’s tools were pounding on my bones.

Usually, when I’m having a dental check-up, I fix my stare at something while the dentist examines my teeth, so as to keep my mind from generating scary dental thoughts. Because Mommy always accompanies me to the clinic and watches me while the dentist checks me up, I always fix my gaze at her, and then she will smile back, and then I will feel better. However, during my dental surgery this morning, Mommy was watching TV at the clinic, so I had no one to stare at. Maybe she was just as anxious as I was about the procedure that she just preferred to watch the TV and not me. I just stared at one corner of the clinic, at the junction where the wall and the ceiling meet.

“I can see it! Gotta cut it! Just wait a little longer, okay?” Seemed like my little innocent molar tooth was already exposed for the world to see. The dentist took another one of her tools, the one which looked and sounded like an electric drill. I closed my eyes. Her equipments were freaking me out. For a moment, I felt that my lips were trembling.

“Done!” said the dentist. “It’s a girl!”

Yep, it was a girl—a bloody, baby girl.

Dead on the table. Split into two.

But hey, it’s not the end of the story. The best part of the surgery was when the dentist said, “Wow, you’re really brave! You’re really apt to become a doctor!” Awww.

Now, my left cheek is swollen.

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PS: It’s not my tooth. Look at the last picture. It’s not even split into two! LOL. I just got it from Google Images. I wasn’t able to get hold of my actual tooth. The dental table was already clean the moment I turned around to get it. The dentist’s assistant might’ve thrown it into the garbage right after the surgery.

Forty Days: Day 26

As the world is celebrating Pacquiao’s victory over Clottey, I’m here in the dormitory, watching Charice and Arnel Pineda sing “A Whole New World” on ASAP XV.

Charice has obviously grown up a lot, compared to when she did a similar duet with Kyuhyun 3 years ago. She was still a little kid back then, but she already had the wonderful voice of a lady. Now, she only gets better and better.

Anyway, if I were to choose my most favorite Disney song, I would pick “A Whole New World” from “Aladdin.” And if I were to choose my most favorite rendition of that song, I would pick Kyuhyun and Charice’s duet on Star King. Funny how I posted that video on a blog entry 4 months back, also the exact same day of Pacquiao’s boxing fight.